if i am not the problem...there is no solution...

life happens...but why should that be a problem? if i know i am powerless over people places and things, then i know i must accept everything...just as it is at this very moment...

when i stay in the problem...all i do is create more chaos...when i let the problem take up space in my head...all i am doing is allowing the problem to be...

today...i can be the problem...or i can be the solution...

the problem is all in my mind...the solution is getting out of my warped thinking...out of self...out of ego...

taking action...doing something different...can only do this for myself...as long as i remain in the problem...problem will remain...if i get into the solution...then i become the solution...

starlightjustfortoday...

I...

I smiles...
I smiles at the sadness that tugs at a heart that is faded memory,
romantic notions of yesterdays loves, finally...experiencing...free;
flowing like peace, into no space with no time,
no shadows; no moons; no me;
there is just seeing...living and being; no one to see, live, or be...
identity gone...I swims alone...in the ocean of all is aware...
what is free falling? what color is rainbow? I AM, IS already there.
no need to wait for the one that is dreaming...
or wait for the butterfly...
I simultaneously meets ALL in the middle
where I gives ALL wings to fly...

tlc...

today's moment...

May 17...

While we are earnestly praying for rain, our crops are dying.

You cannot pray for a job and not go out and look for one. You cannot pray for dinner, and not get up and cook it. I realize that some things just are, and although there is much to be gained by prayer, the truth is God does not always answer our prayers the way we would like for Him to. We have to remember to pray according to Gods will, not ours. Then we have to do whatever it is that needs doing.

Moment by moment, I will not leave everything up to God, then blame Him when things do not go as I want them to.

tlc...

gratitude...to chip and No1

am filled with this right now...have so much to be thankful for...God's grace ofcourse, but there are several who have been instrumental in showing this grace...it is through this grace that i have been given encouragement and support...and TRUTH...in godly love...

when the nails need to be nailed in the coffin, can always count on this chip off the "timeless" block...but this one is always there with hugs and much love too...

and No1 has been there more...too...pointing with wisdom words, much love, and many blessings...

much love; many hugs; and blessings...to yous...

I am what you are...star.

today's moment...

May 15...

If we live long enough, we are sure to see the joy of living, which has always been ours for the taking.

Some wills are meant to be stronger than others. If everyone were the same, what a boring time we would all have getting to know each other! For some of us, extremes are normal. However, time has a way of slowing us down whether we are willing or not. Many times, it is the strong willed person that becomes willing after through trial and error he has run out of options. It is the soul that allows itself to see the joy which surrounds us all who will derive the most pleasure from life. Joy comes from the simplest of Gods gifts. All you need do is open your eyes.

Moment by moment, I will take the joy of living, and I will own it. After all, it is free.

tlc...

learning to live...

sobriety is more about learning to live than stopping the use of chemicals. once the substance abuse is stopped...then the real journey begins. it is not always fun, looking inward, and then trying to deal with every day things that normal people deal with every day...just simple things are not really easy for the alcoholic and addict. i drank and used off and on for a very long time; it is said that emotional maturity stops when one is in addiction...so besides learning how to live life, one is faced with growing up...in front of others usually. cannot get side-tracked though...must remember that this is one day at a time...there is no easier softer way, than just taking the 12 steps...it is not easy...in fact facing oneself can be very difficult...but one day at a time, if you just do not use, things will get better. before you know it...you have over a year...now that is amazing!

starlightjustfortoday...

back to basics...

beginning a class tonight which will involve working the 12 steps again, in a group with a counselor who has several years of sobriety...should be interesting and helpful...will keep you posted...

starlightjustfortoday...