pride...

am amazed at how this thing works...we never seem to be able to see ourself, until it is mirrored back at us by another...

when we see something we do not like in someone else...remember, that is just a reflection of what is within us...

this is where that rigorous self-honesty comes into play...

i really have no place else to go except...WITHIN...

when faced with pride of self...watch it; observe it...it is only a shadow on a golden soul...allow it to fade...naturally...

this is where praying for the willingness to be willing will come in handy...

starlightjustfortoday...

willingness...

is it possible that this willingness is the key to everything?

sometimes, i have to pray for the willingness to be willing...

then, even after all is said and done (12 steps), i have to be willing to allow the universal conscious to recreate life...in the moment...

when all our old 'stuff' is cleared out...a presence of spirit with power is felt within...

we begin to intuitively KNOW...

starlightjustfortoday...

when your world...

when your world becomes too much to take,
take refuge in the spirit...
when your world seems overwhelming,
hit your knees; turn it over;
when you have done all you can do...in your world...
leave the results to the God of your understanding...
when your world is there before you...
do what is in front of you to do...
when your world is mirrored back...
face the fear within...
go with God and KNOW...
within your being...there is peace...

starlightjustfortoday...

healthy relationships...

many of us coming into a program of recovery have enough to do with managing the relationships we already have...i would suggest doing what God puts in front of you to do before you go seeking any new relationships to become addicted to!

the big book tells us that it is on the 'family afterward' we should focus our energies...this is where WE have done the most damage, and to run from these, would be to run from responsibility...

in the beginning, there might have to be a 'time-out' where family is concerned...this is understandable and advised...but we cannot expect our life or any new or old relationships to change, if we have not done the necessary work on the relationships we have had a hand in destroying.

healing old wounds is not easy...but if you have made an effort to work the steps, clear away the wreckage of your past, and have become willing to make ammends as you have opportunity...then YOU WILL be amazed before you are half way through...

however; sobriety must come first...if this means staying clear of unhealthy situations for a while, so be it! you must be healthy enough to deal with the unhealthy situations you have created...

i use to wonder why my life has seemed so much like a merry-go-round...the same situations just keep coming back! well, they will continue to present themselves until we get the message that we must do what God puts in front of us to do...no matter how difficult!

starlightjustfortoday...

pink cloud...

had a great meeting today, and was reminded of how it can be when first in the program...it must be a God thing, for many of us to experience that spiritual 'hi'...what is so ironic, is that as one progresses in the program of recovery, that pink cloud returns...in a more mature way, if you will...

sooooooooooooo...be encouraged! you can always have your pink cloud; given by grace...if you are willing to work for it...so-to-speak, one day at a time...

starlightjustfortoday...

discouragements...

if these did not come, there would be no journey...no lessons...no life...

we can look upon these as an adventure of self discovery...

when discouragements are faced for what they are...

{which they are always, when looked at from within, rooted in selfishness...(sorry!)}

...they disappear and the energy felt as discouragement or frustration...levels out and becomes peaceful essence of being...

starlightjustfortoday...

home group...

am soooooooooooooooo thankful for my home group...

this is where i 'show up' every day, and work towards having healthy relationships. this is also where i am able to practice that rigorous self-honesty...this is where i learn how to be responsible. this is where i learn how to live life on life's terms. this is where i give back what i have been given. this is where i can be at home; and learn to be comfortable in my own skin. this is where my friends will tell me the truth about me...good and bad!

lots of times we come into the program so beat up we don't think there is any good...this is just another example of the unhealthy extremes of the alcoholic-addict thinking...

not only do we need to be called on our 'bs'...we also need to be encouraged...

thanx to my home group, 'happy destiny'...much love going out to them today...

starlightjustfortoday...