Gratitude...

I love sobriety...anyone that does not love it, is not living it...

I have so much to be grateful for. I had a chance to look back at myself yesterday to about two years ago when all this began...the fear and pain I experienced then is nothing compared now to the happiness and freedom I live every day presently. My son is now in drugcourt, and even though I know by experience that he has a painful process to go through, I also know that he has a chance now to learn how to live his life, and be a responsible adult, free of the dis-ease and horror of being enslaved and trapped by drug and alcohol addiction. The pain and fear I saw in his eyes yesterday, tugged at my heart, and what I was looking at was my own pain and suffering that has since been turned into a healthy and happy existence. I just got home from a meeting...there was so much laughter and happiness in this room filled with a bunch of drunks, many still recoverying, and many that have recovered from a seemingly hopeless state of mind...this deal is doable...I mean for real...I am now a published author! I mean in less then two years, I have seen myself climb from the very depths of despair, from losing everything, even my freedom, to being an emotional stable human being, learning how to make healthy decisions, and being a responsible adult. I am even considering a relationship. LOL...a healthy one at that! Awesome stuff indeed...life's a trip, and a sober life, is a trip to heaven...

starlight, justfortoday...

"StarLight Dancing"

My new book is now on sale online!

http://www.amazon.com/StarLight-Dancing/dp/1604745150/ref


"StarLight Dancing"

i hope that you enjoy!

always, star...

Happy, Happy, New Year!

Today marks 20 months of sobriety for me...yeah! What a way to start the New Year huh? I enjoyed a very peaceful evening at home...not that there were not plenty of things I could have done; recovery is full of fun people...parties, dinners, and dances...but I really wanted to just stay in and watch movies and snack out, and that is exactly what I did...I actually have choices today...

This looks to be a wonderful year for me; I have a book coming out; should be able to purchase it by the end of this month. I am finally going to be a published author! Amazing! It is my first book of poetry, the first of a trilogy really. "StarLight Dancing" is the title. I will keep my blogs updated with the info, but it should be available online, through Publish America, by the end of January. Hope you all will enjoy it; it is a labor of love, and a journey of awakening...

I love sobriety!

starlightjustfortoday...

another sober Christmas...

and it is awesome...it is just so wonderful not to be a slave to alcohol and drugs anymore, or anything else for that matter...no matter what life brings, and life is life, and eventually it's gonna bring it, but by staying sober, the peace that sobriety brings, can never be taken...

Merry Christmas...may you all be blessed with recovery...from anything and everything that stands between you and peace...

starlightjustfortoday...

surrender and accept...

sometimes this is the only thing one can do...when the world is unfolding, and my mind wants to question, and i am in that uncomfortable space of dis-ease...all that can be done is to pray for the willingness to be willing...surrender everything to the Universe...and accept that all is as it is...even my own dis-ease...

sometimes the hardest thing to do is the easiest...what ever is in front of me...lol...i guess i still sometimes just don't want to do those dirty dishes!

getting up and doing something different other than sitting in ones stew is a matter of just doing it!

starlightjustfortoday...

drama...

the holidays have their own drama going on...especially where dysfunctional families are concerned, but emotional sobriety means learning not to buy into it. it is not always easy when making healthy decisions; old habits, where loved ones are concerned don't die easy. the healthier you become, the easier it gets to recognize when the bs is starting to get serious. it helps to remember, that you can just say no. today it is very important that sobriety comes first. i do not have to participate in insanity...but, participating in my recovery is a must...and sometimes that means letting go of unhealthy relationships...so be it...sobriety comes first...and since i can only be responsible for my own recovery...ultimately my decisions must be based on that...

remember...if drama is really what you want...watch tnt...at least that way, you can turn it off with the touch of a button!

starlightjustfortoday...

turkey day!

another thanksgiving sober, and for that i am very thankful...learning how to make healthy decisions about life today; lol...sobriety is a life long journey taken one day at a time...it is an adventure; there is still much about life on life's terms that i haven't a clue about...sometimes i feel like a little girl still...learning about this and that...and it always boils down to surrender...to the Universe...and just do what ever is in front of me to do...i don't like making decisions...like should i go here or there for turkey dinner...lol...but, am learning how to do just that on a larger scale these days...keeping it simple...

starlightjustfortoday...