emotions...

when i was in rehab, i went through trauma survivors treatment as well. i learned that i had stopped feeling at a very early age due to various trauma's i had experienced along life's way. i also learned that emotional turmoil, unresolved, can cause physical symptoms as well. i am not gonna get a quick fix here...and all my problems will not just magically disappear because i stopped using, or because i have turned to God. emotional growth is important, and since i "clicked" out of it most my life, one day at a time, i am going to have to stay present in the now to catch up. just for today, if i need to cry, i am going to cry. i am also going to try and figure out the source of that pain, so i can deal with it today. sometimes something in today triggers painful memories from the past...where ever these feelings are from, i pray for courage to face them today. there are some things i must do alone, but if i reach out to others in emotional crisis, i will always find a helping hand...many blessings to all, star.