Friday, July 27, 2007

sometimes...

it seems like no matter what you do, it is wrong...

this has to do with how you allow other's expectations to figure into the big picture...

have to remember that no matter what anyone else thinks about you or your sobriety, it is not about them...it is about you...

when you have done everything within your power, you must surrender the rest to your higher power...in the end...there is no personal control...

EVERYTHING IS ONLY BY GRACE...

starlightjustfortoday...

Sunday, July 22, 2007

nirvana and dragons...

been fighting demons for eternity,
many have brought me to my knee,
preparing for a battle with the ultimate all,
dragon of dragons, am i up to the call?
the final armageddon, is the one within,

reflection, reflecting, time and again...
if i see it as you it's because it is me...
when i finally slay it...i will be free.
do you now understand why you learned how to hate?

what place anger has, in your destiny or fate?
some things must know the hatefulness of love,
they must taste death...to be free of...
once this dragon is dead and gone,

nirvana can sing it's victory song...

tlc...

shadow...

i use to walk among,
the shadow of the dead,
spinning more illusion,
from that i had been fed,
the songs sang oh so beautiful,
luled conscious to deep sleep,
praying prayers of childhood,
a soul that god would keep.
thank god "i" was spiritual,
not like those deep in sin,
they suffered in their slumber,
god appointed "me" to call them in...
self-righteousness fell in the ditch,
got dirty with the rest,
swollen eyes, tear-filled days,
my god is this a test?
playing out the role i had,
such an actress i'd become,
i believed my own lies,
and claimed "god's will be done!"
when finally left with nothing,
was forced to look within...
no me, no soul, no savior,
eternal truth begin...

tlcoriginals...
tlc...

tao...

there is a song within my heart,
am not sure how to sing;
tis on the edge of breaking,
with such joy that truth can bring;
an aching that so longs to know,
a pain that brings a smile,
outside there is nothing;
inside, the endless mile.
potential of the Tao,
the way of perfect heart,
the way of Zen; Buddha; Pure land,
within; the only start...
must have the eye of Spirit;
must be the sword of truth;
cannot find out what i am,
following after you...
all that's outside of my mind,
is just reflection of me...
the depth and heart of all...
within,the Tao of the free...

tlcoriginals...