Resting In The Unknown...

It is so quiet here...so peaceful...so absoutely freeing...
no boundaries or limits of time and space; no thoughts, no problems;
just peace of being...floating;
consciousness that does not need to know, and because it does not need to know, it is known...
let the physical body and the mental mind melt into all that is...within...
are you smiling yet? eyes closed; nothing to emerge;
your breathing that is not yours is relaxing into itself;
feel it in every inch of your body...no thoughts; just peace;
tlc...

the road of happy destiny...

must be trudged...

every morning, for some unknown reason i still wake up with me!

today i find myself being grateful for that...

i roll out of bed and hit my knees and ask the God of my understanding to direct my path...i surrender to that power, and take the first three steps...

my mind is not a very good place to be in the mornings for whatever reason, but today, i am learning to be content with the mind that i have, and am just trying to allow the spirit of the universe to recreate me to ITS design and plan...

have done it my way for long enough...am trying to let go absolutely of ALL old ideas...and accept where i am at this moment...

i can't...God can...gonna let God...

or, HELP...also works!

starlightjustfortoday...

where is God...?

God is conscious being...

God is in the moment...NOW...

God is not in yesterday, not in tomorrow, and certainly not in your head!

God is within...

starlightjustfortoday...

pain and misery...

pain is inevitable...misery is optional...

you stump your toe, pain comes then goes...

misery is when we relive the pain over and over again in our minds...

misery is self-created...

most of our suffering is psychological...

if we learn to be present in the moment...pain will come and go...

misery cannot live in the moment...

starlightjustfortoday...

cease fighting everything...

when we are finally able to do this...

peace is...

starlightjustfortoday...

no big deals...

getting sober has taught me that there are just no big deals today...

what i get upset about in the moment...is not really going to matter much in the larger scheme of life...

they are just baby fits...

it is kinda fun now to sit back and watch grown folks pitching baby fits...mirror mirror...

i don't mean this in a bad way, it is just i have 'been there done that', and it is halarious now that my higher power has such a sense of humor as to show me through others...my self...

today i can smile and say..."i use to act like that"...and may again tomorrow!

one day at a time...

starlightjustfortoday...

not taking things so personal...

when i first got sober some 15 months ago, i was very sensitive, and took a lot of things personal...that had to have been because i thought that the world revolved around me...(LOL)

today, not so much! haha...thanx to a program of recovery, i have matured a little anyways! and today, when someone is acting out, i am able to look past that and see a person in pain...

am beginning to see that the ONLY reason someone hurts another, is because they are hurting themselves.

today i do not feel the need to be right, or to take up for myself, or make excuses when someone appears to be accusative towards me or down right hateful...it is also a mirror of myself...that reminds me of old behaviours that i do not want to pick back up...

this is a blessing for me...to be able to look beyond another's hatefulness and see their humanness and pain...and to just not make a big deal out of it! progress...also, understanding this, keeps me from harboring resentments that can only hurt me...

my stuff, your stuff, and God's stuff...it is just that simple...

starlightjustfortoday...

working with others...

ROTF...as if!

what has got me laughing at myself, is that it is easy to get all caught up in the fact that 'i' am working with others...helping them!

working with others helps me see myself...and that helps me more than anything i could ever do to help another...we can only point the way; it is an inward journey...i must do my own work...

that is how it works...

was with someone earlier, sharing my experience of working the fourth step; in helping them get started, something was uncovered about myself in the process...haha...go figure!

just wanted to share that little tidbit...

starlightjustfortoday...

pride...

am amazed at how this thing works...we never seem to be able to see ourself, until it is mirrored back at us by another...

when we see something we do not like in someone else...remember, that is just a reflection of what is within us...

this is where that rigorous self-honesty comes into play...

i really have no place else to go except...WITHIN...

when faced with pride of self...watch it; observe it...it is only a shadow on a golden soul...allow it to fade...naturally...

this is where praying for the willingness to be willing will come in handy...

starlightjustfortoday...

willingness...

is it possible that this willingness is the key to everything?

sometimes, i have to pray for the willingness to be willing...

then, even after all is said and done (12 steps), i have to be willing to allow the universal conscious to recreate life...in the moment...

when all our old 'stuff' is cleared out...a presence of spirit with power is felt within...

we begin to intuitively KNOW...

starlightjustfortoday...

when your world...

when your world becomes too much to take,
take refuge in the spirit...
when your world seems overwhelming,
hit your knees; turn it over;
when you have done all you can do...in your world...
leave the results to the God of your understanding...
when your world is there before you...
do what is in front of you to do...
when your world is mirrored back...
face the fear within...
go with God and KNOW...
within your being...there is peace...

starlightjustfortoday...

healthy relationships...

many of us coming into a program of recovery have enough to do with managing the relationships we already have...i would suggest doing what God puts in front of you to do before you go seeking any new relationships to become addicted to!

the big book tells us that it is on the 'family afterward' we should focus our energies...this is where WE have done the most damage, and to run from these, would be to run from responsibility...

in the beginning, there might have to be a 'time-out' where family is concerned...this is understandable and advised...but we cannot expect our life or any new or old relationships to change, if we have not done the necessary work on the relationships we have had a hand in destroying.

healing old wounds is not easy...but if you have made an effort to work the steps, clear away the wreckage of your past, and have become willing to make ammends as you have opportunity...then YOU WILL be amazed before you are half way through...

however; sobriety must come first...if this means staying clear of unhealthy situations for a while, so be it! you must be healthy enough to deal with the unhealthy situations you have created...

i use to wonder why my life has seemed so much like a merry-go-round...the same situations just keep coming back! well, they will continue to present themselves until we get the message that we must do what God puts in front of us to do...no matter how difficult!

starlightjustfortoday...