another day...

made it through another day,
had my share of love and play,
just for today, such healing was mine,
my journey of hope, in God's time.
God's loving arms held me today,
close to him and in his way...
please walk with me,
share this joy,
be a part,
of this one's story...

tlc...

Mystic Physics...

The Dance…
Two particles dancing the dance of life;
Colliding, they became one,
Disappearing into each other…
The Dance of Shiva begun.
Were they absorbed?
Did they really disappear?
Or just become something else?
When the energy becomes too much to handle,
Particles release some of themself.
Particles, particles, all over the place,
Explosion of such, so goes the human race;
Can all the kings soldiers and all the kings men,
Ever put what was back together again?
We dance, we collide, explode, do not die,
We only become something new;
The process may be painful,
But what is one to do?
Misunderstandings begin in the mind,
Where evil and good are born;
As long as we hold tightly to things unreal,
Our spirits can never soar.
Let go, let go, of all that ever was,
And you will discover you’re free,
On the wings of love, I’m a butterfly,
Come fly away with me…
tlcoriginals…

196 days...

was the last time i used...it seems longer, whatever that means, but for this drunk and druggie, this is a great accomplishment. this is a new way of life for me. a healing journey of hope...it really does not matter how much time i have...just matters what i do with it today...the further i get away from my last drunk, the closer i am to my next drink...and for me, even one drink is dangerous...have to remember where i have been and i have to do this one day at a time. every morning i turn my will and my life over to the care of God as i understand God... God keeps me sober...i thank him at night, and just for today, i try and live my life according to God's will not mine...it is working today...gonna try it tomorrow...God grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change, courage to change the things i can, and the wisdom to know the difference...just for today...many blessings to all...starlight.

frustration...

well, this is the best i can do today...this blog that is; have been working on it for hours, wondering what to post, what not to post, what to cut and paste, what not to cut and paste...then of course there are the pics...like to never even got my star on...haha! today, it is ok to feel frustrated...it is just a feeling...and this is just a blog! if it all disappears, what is really lost? i will learn as i go...was e-mailing a friend earlier, wondering what i should post, should i put links, ladidadidadida! who cares? i mean, how important is it really in the scheme of things? i am ROTF laughing right now...well, could not very well be typing if i were actually rotf...but you get the idea. my point is, i can feel all my feelings today and not run from them. i can laugh and cry at the same time if i need to. i can feel bad, and not be destroyed by it...it is just a passing feeling...nothing more. recognizing your feelings, and not running from them is part of recovery. i am excellent as an escape artist. today, i want to participate in my life for a change. make better choices...and walk through my life one moment at a time...present in mind, body, and spirit...many times that means feeling frustrated...nowhere does it say that i have to remain that way...look at it, whatever it is, feel it, accept it, and then move on! many blessings to all...star.

ps. just figured out how to allow comments...haha! i am really silly! and computer illiterate...

Beauty and Beyond...

Beyond what is seen by the naked eye; there is beauty. Underneath all that you are not, you will find all that you truly are–there, is Beauty. Like a rose that begins its journey as a seed, you too, the real you that remains unseen as of yet, must be nurtured. A seed requires good soil, Gods’ rain, His sunshine, And His breath to grow, bud, and finally bloom. A rose is not a rose until it is first a seed; and even then, God must visit it. Will you be the yellow rose whose edges have been dipped in a burgundy fire? Will you be the red, red rose whose depth is cast in the mystery of its’ own darkness? Will you be one of the many shades of pink or lavender when done?Rust Orange? Angel White? Sky Blue? Or will only the Rainbow Rose do for you? Once the beast within is tame, the beauty beyond is all that will remain. Like a whisper on the wind you must learn to bow and bend; With grace and poise your Spirit soars on the wings of your angel; You are reborn. Awaken from your slumber sleeping beauty…You are invisible to all; But your Creator knows and sees…YOU ARE…Beauty and Beyond…tlcoriginals…

little things...

i use to dream grander dreams,
did not consider God’s scheme of things;
God brought me down, so i could see,
just how God wanted things to be.
my head was filled up--full of lies,
i kept stumbling, the harder i tried,
my fears drove me away from God,
God brought me back, through grace and love.
in the valley, my soul looked up,
finally empty, God filled with love,
I made you special, just for Me…
I opened your heart, so you could see…
let Me guide you, take My hand,
when I allow, you’ll understand.
it is by faith, that you shall walk,
I’ll give you words when you should talk,
My child let go of all your dreams,
and live My way…of little things…

tlcoriginals...

only a leaf...

only a leaf on the water;
whispering your journey to here,
were you once on a twig or a tree?
dropped by a bird? did the wind set you free?
how far did you fly on a breeze?
i spy a butterfly that landed on you once;
she left you for her preference of smelling a buttercup.
maybe you once were a four-leaf clover,
ripped from the other three...
maybe what i appear to see in the mirror,
disappeared, and you became me.
only a leaf on the water;
how many colors have you been?
how many falls have you beheld?
only to become again...
countless raindrops you've obsorbed,
many clouds you have become,
remember when as that princess child, together, the fields, we'd run?
how many sunsets have you seen?
thousands of miles traveled on a moonbeam;
cannot escape the reality i am you and you are me.
only a leaf on the water;
only you will never be,
as long as there is God's creation,
you'll be infinity...
tlcoriginals...

thanx to my friend chip for the inspiration...