easy does it...

no matter where you are along your journey of sobriety, there will come many times when you just have to take a deep breathe, and say softly to yourself...easy does it...

i had a rough spot over the past few days...i think i taxed my brain to much...LOL...and i just had all this frustration going on...there was a lot of anger...i tend to get all caught up in whatever it is that i am writing about at the time, and i was writing about poverty, starving children, war...politics seems to bring all this to the table right now, but i tend to think that it should never be away from the table...but then, these are all emotional issues, and ones that i have struggled with for many years...

at any rate, i still see my tendency to get all caught up in the helplessness and powerlessness of certain situations...but what is so remarkable, is that my mind is programed now, to immediately go to those steps...i am not really bothered by having to do this anymore, and am thankful that it was designed to help me with my broken system of thinking straight...

there are still times when my thinker just will not cooperate...and i drift to easy solutions...like drugs and alcohol...there is also within addiction, the tendency to want to just blow your brains out...that should scream to one to do something different...knowing the traps and triggers is helpful...then playing the tape all the way through to the consequences of that first drink or drug...and being honest with myself...i know that if i push myself to hard, physically or mentally, or if i don't get enough sleep, or if i don't eat properly, i could easily put myself in a dangerous situation...

and so...sometimes...i have to just go back to those tried and true one liners...

EASY DOES IT!

life is life, and even when we are not pushing ourselves to hard, shit happens...today though, i don't have to look to far for a solution...there are plenty of meetings, plenty of people i can call, heck i can even find them online...lol...so, if you find yourself in an uncomfortable space...and you have done everything you know to do...remember...easy does it...

starlightjustfortoday...