frustration...

well, this is the best i can do today...this blog that is; have been working on it for hours, wondering what to post, what not to post, what to cut and paste, what not to cut and paste...then of course there are the pics...like to never even got my star on...haha! today, it is ok to feel frustrated...it is just a feeling...and this is just a blog! if it all disappears, what is really lost? i will learn as i go...was e-mailing a friend earlier, wondering what i should post, should i put links, ladidadidadida! who cares? i mean, how important is it really in the scheme of things? i am ROTF laughing right now...well, could not very well be typing if i were actually rotf...but you get the idea. my point is, i can feel all my feelings today and not run from them. i can laugh and cry at the same time if i need to. i can feel bad, and not be destroyed by it...it is just a passing feeling...nothing more. recognizing your feelings, and not running from them is part of recovery. i am excellent as an escape artist. today, i want to participate in my life for a change. make better choices...and walk through my life one moment at a time...present in mind, body, and spirit...many times that means feeling frustrated...nowhere does it say that i have to remain that way...look at it, whatever it is, feel it, accept it, and then move on! many blessings to all...star.

ps. just figured out how to allow comments...haha! i am really silly! and computer illiterate...