Sometimes in Sobriety...

when everything is going great, you can still experience overwhelming periods of sadness...out of seemingly nowhere...

just an update...my life is wonderful...i love sobriety...

the relationships with my family are awesome...my wonderful Mother and Sister are so kind and loving...my children are terrific...

just spent three weeks with my daughter and grandchildren; had a marvelous time...she is happy...with a new job and excitement of her upcoming wedding...we picked out dresses, and did some planning...had an amazing time...children really 'keep you in the moment'...lol

when i returned home, i ended up spending some time with my Mother and Sister at their home; it went really well...i was so impressed with the overall visit...

then i came home, and spent the weekend with my Son, who has over four months sobriety, and is doing very well, working with his sponsor, and learning to live life on it's own terms...i have my son back...for which i am so grateful...

so, when on Sunday, after working with another alcoholic, sharing my experience, strength, and hope, i had to wonder what was going on, when i was overwhelmed with a blueness, that lingers still...she was a mirror of my past...

one thing i find myself realizing...still...is that all life, in and of itself, is a mirror...

we cannot know joy, without knowing sorrow...

the potential goal, i suppose...is to experience whatever it is that you are going through...don't get trapped there...by disisively accepting or rejecting...whatever...and look at what can be learned by every experience you have...

live freely in whatever your Universe unfolds...continuously...in the moment...

similtaneously...

joy can dance within sadness...

tears can cry through laughter...

strength is stronger having gone through pain...

share your experience, strength, and hope...with another...

recovery is hope...

chaos is the very energy of peace...

starlightjustfortoday...

let angels cry...

tears are water for the soul,
greif cannot be contained...
the sun shines there beyond the clouds,
so dear one, let it rain...
pain is the stepping stone of grace,
feel and know it's depth...
you must be empty to be filled,
your very life, a gift...
overwhelming sorrow,
gives birth to joy beyond...
nature releases all that's held,
and waves it's magic wand...
soon your soul is singing,
in harmony with truth,
let angels cry, through your eyes,
true nature's way to sooth...
tlcoriginals...

Happy Birthday To Me...

Two years ago today, I began this journey...I am reminded of where I began, and how far I have come...I love sobriety...I love this new freedom that I have found...and I thank God for the gift of grace, to walk this path of freedom, learning every step of the way, to better live life on it's own terms, and to be the responsible human being, that I was born to be...it continues to be an awesome journey; many relationships that are dear to me have been repaired; my health has returned...emotionally, mentally, and physically...I am so thankful for those that God put into my life, that have helped me on this journey...and although it has happened one day at a time, sometimes, one moment at a time, I now have two years sober...today...and I am happy, joyous, and free from the addiction that enslaved me for so many years. May all that are bound by addiction, break free this very moment, and begin a new life, a new journey, and walk the path that really goes somewhere...

justfortoday...star...

so blessed...

my son showed up on my doorstep today; 24 days clean...he is doing very well in drugcourt, and i am very proud and happy that he is learning to live sober and be responsible for his own behaviour one day at a time. we laughed and cried together today, and i felt that not only did i have my true son back, but he has his true mother.

i am soooooooooooooo grateful to drugcourt and all that God's many angels do to help those afflicted with the dis-ease of addiction. if you are still out there suffering, there is a way through it...reach out and get help, and one moment at a time...turn your life around!

starlightjustfortoday...

Gratitude...

I love sobriety...anyone that does not love it, is not living it...

I have so much to be grateful for. I had a chance to look back at myself yesterday to about two years ago when all this began...the fear and pain I experienced then is nothing compared now to the happiness and freedom I live every day presently. My son is now in drugcourt, and even though I know by experience that he has a painful process to go through, I also know that he has a chance now to learn how to live his life, and be a responsible adult, free of the dis-ease and horror of being enslaved and trapped by drug and alcohol addiction. The pain and fear I saw in his eyes yesterday, tugged at my heart, and what I was looking at was my own pain and suffering that has since been turned into a healthy and happy existence. I just got home from a meeting...there was so much laughter and happiness in this room filled with a bunch of drunks, many still recoverying, and many that have recovered from a seemingly hopeless state of mind...this deal is doable...I mean for real...I am now a published author! I mean in less then two years, I have seen myself climb from the very depths of despair, from losing everything, even my freedom, to being an emotional stable human being, learning how to make healthy decisions, and being a responsible adult. I am even considering a relationship. LOL...a healthy one at that! Awesome stuff indeed...life's a trip, and a sober life, is a trip to heaven...

starlight, justfortoday...

"StarLight Dancing"

My new book is now on sale online!

http://www.amazon.com/StarLight-Dancing/dp/1604745150/ref


"StarLight Dancing"

i hope that you enjoy!

always, star...

Happy, Happy, New Year!

Today marks 20 months of sobriety for me...yeah! What a way to start the New Year huh? I enjoyed a very peaceful evening at home...not that there were not plenty of things I could have done; recovery is full of fun people...parties, dinners, and dances...but I really wanted to just stay in and watch movies and snack out, and that is exactly what I did...I actually have choices today...

This looks to be a wonderful year for me; I have a book coming out; should be able to purchase it by the end of this month. I am finally going to be a published author! Amazing! It is my first book of poetry, the first of a trilogy really. "StarLight Dancing" is the title. I will keep my blogs updated with the info, but it should be available online, through Publish America, by the end of January. Hope you all will enjoy it; it is a labor of love, and a journey of awakening...

I love sobriety!

starlightjustfortoday...