Happy Holidays...

making it through holidays in sobriety can be very difficult for alcoholic/addicts;

i mean, truth be told, when i was using, never had to have a holiday...

the sun was shining...i used...

the sun wasn't shining...i used...

i have had a wonderful weekend...went to several barbeques and one picnic...and swimming too...

i have been blessed by having the desire to use removed...not that i have not thought about it...however; today...if i even start to romanticize about using again...which is normal in a way...every alcoholic fantasizes about being a normal drinker......AS IF! and that is how the obsession begins...in the mind..."oh i can just have one drink"...NOT!

when i think about it...and am honest, i never wanted to be a normal drinker...NO WAY...have one drink and that's it? WHY? never did understand those so-called "normal drinkers"...however, when it does enter my mind...which would be normal for me, i only have to play the tape all the way through...if i am being honest with myself, then there is no way that i can take a drink or a drug today.

one drink or drug...is one to many...and a thousand is never enough...

that is the truth of the matter...and when i am honest with myself about that...my holidays could not be any happier...

starlightjustfortoday...