so many changes have come my way in just the last week. that is what sobriety is all about. can remember someone saying, "there is only one thing you have to change...EVERYTHING!" this is proving to be true in my experience. i am not living where i was, and in many ways it is an improvement, but in many ways, some of my comforts are gone. no more internet at home, so i am at the library right now, and my time will run out real soon! like to never have gotten on! many things are much harder now, but many others are easier...the most important thing, is that i am in an emotionally safe environment for me, and i can continue to heal. there is a recovery club house less than a block away, this library is right down the street, there are stores everywhere, and i am very close to the bus route. i had to find a new sponsor, which i did, and we worked some steps last night. i am living with other ladies who have this problem of addiction, and so far, it has been very peaceful. i have been having a very difficult time letting go of all the guilt i have carried all my life it seems, but my sponsor has assured me that i will be able to let it go, and that it will get better. right now, i will just have to take her word for it. i must be growing, cause it is very painful!
keeping it real, just for today, star.
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