Wednesday, March 7, 2007

wanting what i want...

having a problem today...wanting what i want RIGHT NOW! i want to move into my new apartment. it has been ready for weeks, or so i was told...all of the deposits were paid last week, then i was told that inspection did not pass on the apartment they gave me...soooooooo, they moved me to a downstairs, which i was suppose to have anyways...and now i am waiting for the judge to say it is ok...still have to get a phone...and everything else! trying to stay in God's will instead of my own is still hard sometimes...i mean, it is simple...but hard! i have ten months of continuous clean time today...that is a miracle. i have an apartment of my own...another miracle...i have a job...a big miracle...haha! now if i can just get moved in and settled...i know it is always in God's time not mine...but i still am human...progress not perfection...and sometimes i still want what i want...NOW! just for today i will accept that i am human...and not beat myself up for being self-centered about wanting to move today. everything will work out the way it is suppose to, and i know if i involve my own self-will, i will just mess things up...so...that will be my lesson today...just for today...i will allow God's will to unfold before me...i will do the next right thing...and right things will follow...

blessings...star.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

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Reply to: jetboyfilms@hotmail.com
Date: 2007-03-05, 9:42PM CST


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