feeling...

my drinking and drugging career spanned over a number of years...there were periods of sobriety, but for the most part i lived to use...anything that would keep me from feeling...so it is not surprising, that even though i did my amends step to the best of my ability, that there would be other things crop up from time to time...this has been one of those days...very peaceful, overall, however; God brought some people back in my life, and to say the least, it was overwhelming...so many emotions...a day of reflection...and sadness...for some things i had forgotten about...going to do a mini fourth step on some old resentments i honestly did not remember...until today...and even though i feel no resentment...there is that sadness...so more garbage to take out...hopefully this will all get processed...the sooner i deal with it...the sooner i can let it go...gotta feel it first though...accept it...take thoses steps...honestly look at my part...make amends where necessary...then...freedom...

starlightjustfortoday...