first things first...

and first...i'd like to welcome YOU back into recovery...a process of learning how to live life on it's terms...rather than having life live you as self-will run riot!

this is especially for my dear sweet friend who made it back alive...she knows who she is, so i wont mention any names...but since i am sponsoring her...AGAIN...lol...i am going to be doing a series of blogs about TAKING the 12 steps into a stable, sober, well-balanced life which consists of happiness, joy, and freedom...

first things first...

you have to practice staying in the moment...being here...right now...first...

being present in this moment is one of the most basic principles of recovery, and an absolute if you are ever going to be able to live life on it's own terms...

this ties into the first step and that powerlessness and unmanageability that is felt by those entering into recovery...from anything...

i had to admit that not only was i powerless over alcohol and drugs, but that i was also powerless over my very life... it was quiet obvious to everyone else that i did not know how to make healthy decisions...and i had had years of trying to figure it out in my head...and was quiet knowledgeable about many things...but all that knowledge did not amount to anything when it came to a proper defense against my inability to make healthy choices and live life on life's terms...i was stuck on stupid!

i had to take the cotton out of my ears...and put it in my mouth...iow...shut up and listen!

first things first...

staying in this moment...being awake to what you are feeling...what you are experiencing RIGHT NOW...

what is your physical body telling you? what are your inner emotions trying to release and tell you?

LET THE PAIN OUT...

FEEL TO HEAL...AND KEEP IT REAL...

now, i am saying let the pain out...

BUT DON'T GET STUCK IN IT...

STAY IN THE MOMENT...

DO WHAT IS IN FRONT OF YOU TO DO...
(even if it is just washing those damn dirty dishes!)

CALL YOUR SPONSOR WHEN YOU GET STUCK OR OVERWHELMED!

if you don't have anything to do...read the Doctor's Opinion again...and The Chapter To The Agnostics...(Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous)

so ok...first things first...stay in the moment...pay attention to what you feel...be honest...write it down...cry...hit a pillow...read your literature...but whatever you are doing...keep your attention to the moment and what is going on inside you NOW...once you begin to see it...only then can you get honest about it...and really deal with it...and remember this...i may be a hard ass...but that is b/c

YOU ARE HARDHEADED...AND STILL WANT THINGS YOUR WAY...

your way...got you here...so it is better to admit that

YOU DON'T KNOW...

YOUR WAY DOES NOT WORK...

YOUR WAY WILL NEVER WORK...

YOU ARE POWERLESS...

HOW DOES IT FEEL? LOL

YOUR LIFE IS UNMANAGEABLE...

HOW DOES IT FEEL?


also, remember that i love you...and am thankful to you...for YOU...keep me sober...

be filled with your own inner joy...and make a gratitude list before you call me...

WHAT YOU CANNOT HANDLE...TURN OVER TO THE UNIVERSE...

since you don't have a higher power...yet...i am loaning you mine...it works!

starlightjustfortoday...