powerlessness...

unless i live this step...every day...i will soon forget just how powerless i am, and begin again to struggle against my creator. i have to cease fighting everything. i can control absolutely nothing. i have been physically sick with a stomach virus since Friday. am feeling some better, but still cannot eat without pain. just going to take it easy; drink plenty of fluids, and live through it. i am sure there is a reason, if nothing else, when it does pass, i will be very grateful...haha! many blessings, star.