hello world...

it is early in the am for me, not usually up this early...i love to sleep late but this morning, 'things' are calling for me to do them...am realizing how easy it is to share when i am right with me...when i am not, there is much confusion, and i, like most do not like baring all that confusion in front of the world! haha...just another proof that 'i am not so different!

God has really been revealing his grace...but in saying this, am aware that grace is ALWAYS...it is just that sometimes i get so caught up in my head that i cannot see or feel GRACE...am so grateful for today...

it is difficult to feel and see GRACE within, when your mind and body are not in harmony. for years i not only escaped through chemicals, i also tried to run away through the spirit...it was comforting in an unhealthy way i suppose to tell myself that i was not of this world, and so i was constantly trying to figure out how to escape it!

the important thing for me to remember today, is that although i may not be of this world, i am none the less in it...and that fact alone tells me that i should do my best to 'fit' in the here and now...

whether this is an illusion or not, i appear as this body, with this mind, and yet i cannot deny this strong sense of something within...call it soul, spirit, consciousness, or whatever...this is what i really am...

'they' (whomever they are) say, that when one finally realizes the 'self' within, or what is referred to as enlightenment or awakening, that what happens is the mountain is seen, it disappears, and then it is seen again...

my mountains are coming back! and they will never be just mountains anymore...haha...not saying that i am enlightened, for in actuality, there is no real enlightenment...no one to wake up, and nothing to wake up to...that was not already there...always...but it is just a shift in one's perception...

whatever 'this' is...i am thankful for IT...thankful that i am aware of IT today...the God of my understanding just keeps getting bigger...and that is a good thang!

soooooooooooooo, to all yous out there that are on this journey, heads up! look within for strength and guidance...look without for beauty...the sky is blue, the sun is shining, the birds are singing...and God is saying: HELLO WORLD!

don't use and go to a meeting!

starlightjustfortoday...