willingness...

in recovery, willingness is very important. i was not very willing when i first got sober. i was convinced that i could not survive without my pain pills. it took what it took. today marks seven months since my last use of any mind altering chemicals. i still find myself slamming the door on willingness sometimes, but recovery does not work without it. i still want what i want...but today that includes being sober. all it takes is just a little willingness to do things differently. my self-will has slammed the door between me and God...and no doubt will continue to do so on this journey of healing. willingness, in the smallest proportion, is all that is needed to open that door. just for today, i am willing...many blessings, star.